So, nobody probably noticed, but I’m not taking math this semester. It’s pretty weird for me, because this blog started out as an assignment for my last math class. I was signed up for Calculus III, otherwise known as Vector Calculus, but dropped it after two classes, and added another econ upper level and a 2-credit internship.
I was pretty excited to take math this semester, because FOM was beyond awesome, but I was very shocked to go into this Calc class and find that I was super behind. Calc here is taught as “first semester calc” through “third semester calc”, and goes by a different timeline than St. Mary’s apparently.
I walked in the first day, didn’t know what a vector was when apparently I was supposed to, and pretty much knew I wouldn’t be having a great time in that class.
I was pretty spoiled last semester, just because FOM was so interesting, and if you ever didn’t have a grasp on a concept, Casey was right there to explain it again. Yeah, it took 7 hours to finish the homework, and it was frustrating, but hey, I learned a lot in those 7 hours.
I was spending so much time on this Calc homework, which mostly just consisted of me staring at the book until I thought it was a good time to move on to the next impossible question.
In the two days I went to the class, it was pretty rushed, I didn’t get all my questions answered, and left feeling anxious because I had just listened to 50 minutes of math that made absolutely no sense to me.
So I dropped it. I’m going to take Vector and Linear concurrently next semester to make up for it back at good old SMCM.
I’m pretty disappointed in myself for dropping a class after 2 classes. I’ve taken classes before that have made me cry, ones that I thought for sure I was going to fail, and classes that challenged me to the point where I didn’t even want to show up. But, I always made it to the other side. I’m especially embarrassed because I pride myself on being able to handle math.
All excuses aside, I gave up on Calc for the semester, which sucks. But hopefully next semester I can make up for it, and love math again. I’m hoping to make some time for me to go through my calc textbook on my own time and talk about some basic vector concepts on the blog – let’s hope I follow through.